I am not happy. The doctor told me I needed to be seen immediately because my allergic reaction this weekend to the unknown substance in the Snickers bar was: a.) severe enough that the next one could kill me, b.) concerning because I had never reacted to a Snickers bar before, at least not allergically....I had often reacted with an extended "mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm." and c.) I needed an epipen to be with me at all times and unless they saw me they could not prescribe one. So I went in yesterday to the kind doctor.
Here is the good news: my blood pressure was only 110/70. This is of course BEFORE I went to the pharmacy and learned the price of an epipen.
The bad news: the price of the epipen.
More bad news: "And," said the doctor, "You need to see a specialist."
Ohoh. More bad news. We have never tested our Christian Care Insurance, (bought because we didn't want to support abortion and Obamacare) but I know the deductible is enormous. How were we going to cover the costs of this incident?
"Could I wait on that?" I suggested, eyeing the cost of the epipen alone.
"You could," he said, "But it would be foolish. You have to know what it was in that Snickers bar that caused this reaction because in all likelihood, the next time will be much worse."
So I called the Christian Care Insurance hotline. I had little hope since I knew our deductible was in the thousands, but still, one never knows when a miracle might be just waiting to happen. Lo and behold, since the initial visit and epipen cost was so high, the specialist, considered part of this single incident, would be free! There is a much lower deductible per single incident! The specialist would be completely covered. MAJOR good news.
Here were the verses I read in my bible reading yesterday:
Jeremiah 29: 11-14 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and I will restore your fortunes and gather you from all the nations and all the places where I have driven you, declares the Lord, and I will bring you back to the place from which I sent you into exile.
A hope and a future. This is what God plans for me. I need to get beyond life threatening allergies, the cost of epipens, or the fact that Snickers are NOT in my future. I must trust that when I seek God with all my heart, HE WILL BE FOUND. That is what matters. That is why I am here.
Charles Spurgeon says that if we don't see Jesus, it is not because He isn't there -- it is because we didn't expect Him and in our unbelief, we don't recognize Him. Spurgeon continues: And why do we not see him? It must be ascribed in our case, as in the disciples', to unbelief. They evidently did not expect to see Jesus, and therefore they did not know him. To a great extent in spiritual things we get what we expect of the Lord. Faith alone can bring us to see Jesus. Make it your prayer, "Lord, open thou mine eyes, that I may see my Saviour present with me." It is a blessed thing to want to see him; but oh! it is better far to gaze upon him. To those who seek him he is kind; but to those who find him, beyond expression is he dear!
That is the good news...the really good news.
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ReplyDeleteLovely painting again!
ReplyDeleteThanks Amy.
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