Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Always With Me

Two thousand miles, one week filled with family, and immeasurable moments of joy later, we are home again. I had cleaned my house before I left so when the despair of leaving all those beloved ones behind hit me, I would at least be walking back into normal life without having to clear the debris before me.

Our van served us well, carting our family and my son's family and all that luggage all those miles to my folks' 60th anniversary. Our little converter that connects to the car power outlet powered 3 computers, a GPS, and a phone. Matt was able to study for his Bar exam, while Asherel and Karissa watched a movie, and our GPS pointed us on the right path. For a week, the power outlet soldiered on, but in the last two hours of the drive home, after we dropped Matt and Karissa in Virginia, the converter blew a fuse and our radio and our electric outlet all were silenced. After all the chatter and laughter and excitement of the week of my folks' gala 60th anniversary, the silence was deafening.

So we watched the road, and the cows in the fields, and the sunset, which was beautiful. Occasionally, though he knew the fuse had blown, husband Arvo would poke at the radio button, hoping it would come back on. But of course, it didn't. The connection, for the moment, was severed.

I read a chapter from my mobile phone Bible, and thanked God (again) that He never disconnects from me. The fuse of His grace and mercy never melts and sparks to an end. His presence is always with me.

Night descended. Asherel slept stretched out on the back seat. Lights sparkled on Lake Norman as we approached home. I thought about my parents, the kazoos I had brought to add a spark of zany to the celebration, my quirky fun siblings, the somber memorial services and ashes laid to rest of Mom K and Raivo, the reconnecting with delightful friends and relatives we hadn't seen in many years, laughter, food, hugs, and then goodbyes.

Arvo jabbed at the radio again. It was silent but my head was brimming with echoes of happiness.

Your love is always with me. I have always lived by your truth. (Psalm 26:3 NIRV)

Lift up your eyes on high, and see who hath created these, that bringeth out their host by number; he calleth them all by name; by the greatness of his might, and for that he is strong in power, not one is lacking. (Isaiah 40:26 ASV)

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