I was always a healthy eater, but now I am targeting foods known to heal cancer and supercharge the immune system. (Thank you Joy and Alice!) I am consciously spending time each day forgiving the people that I have had anger against, because the bitterness was literally killing me. I have consciously taken every negative thought captive for Jesus because it fuels itself, and despair takes hold far too eagerly. I am making time to do activities that fill me with joy -- kayaking, drawing, biking, walking, writing.
And then one of the woman who I led to the Lord after helping her choose not to abort her child sent me this:
That's a little girl that might not have been here if God hadn't prompted our team to be on the sidewalk of the abortion center that day. Joy unspeakable! Also, surely God wouldn't bless me with the desire and the will to speak up for children like this princess only to kill me with a terrible disease...would He? My work here doesn't feel done.
Yesterday, I taught the last art class of delightful girls before my surgery. I told them I hope to be back teaching by the end of May, but it depends on....well...a future I cannot see. We drew a lighthouse and ocean scene. The beam of the lighthouse was the last thing we drew. The focus was first on a somber, menacing sky, then rocks that would crush those voyagers who stumbled upon them unawares. Next, we colored in the tumultuous sea and the crashing waves. Finally, the lighthouse.
Had we neglected to paint in the lighthouse beam, it would have been an ominous picture. Danger lurking from the sky above and the waves and rocks below. But the light changed everything. That beam of light is the hopeful detail that overcomes the darkness.
This was a fitting symbol for my next month. A dangerous rocky shore threatens all who come near, but the lighthouse beam warns and guides. Will it bring us safely to our harbor? As long as we keep our eyes on the light, and heed its warnings.
I lay in the darkness a little while last night, and thought of Jesus, His sacrifice, His love, His promises. Light of the world, shine on me.
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FYI: I am selling my attic full of art to help fund my cancer journey. This lighthouse below is for sale. If interested, contact me at vickychooseslife@yahoo.com.
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may God bless you richly in this journey---
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