The Bible could have substituted my name for Job, and lately, it feels as though that would not have been too far off the mark. I love what our pastor said about Job. Job is an example of struggling well with adversity. I have always felt that is true. Job was certainly not happy with what was happening to him, he felt betrayed by his wife, and his friends, and abandoned by God.
However, and this is huge, (bigger than my painting), he never lost faith. He clung to God, despite the utter despair and hopelessness he saw before him. He railed against the injustice of what he was facing, and begged God to give him a chance to plead his case and change his circumstances...but he never recanted his allegiance to God.
Yes.
That is exactly where I am. I hate the struggles I am facing. Cancer is just one of many. But, God is real. If I deny God, then I really have lost the war. I don't understand why I must endure all that I must endure, but I trust that God does.
Maybe most people facing a dreadful surgery like a mastectomy want the comfort of people around them, but I crave quiet solitude, preferably in nature. The surgery is this Friday, unless God works a miracle. Nonetheless, a very dear friend was graduating, and we were invited to his senior piano recital. I squelched the need for aloneness, and we went.
I was glad I did. For an hour, I was enveloped in the beautiful sounds of a young virtuoso, who was as transported by his music as I am by my art. I could sense in him the same abandonment and delight I feel in how God has gifted him. It did my soul good to listen. It reminded me of our purpose in life in all that we do: Glorify God.
When I saw him afterwards, he asked if I had gotten any ideas for paintings. I told him I had. In fact, the week before, I had done a painting for him as a graduation gift. I had given it to his mom, but I assumed by his comment, he had not yet received it. Portraits are not really my forte, but it sort of looks like him...and it looks a lot like his piano....
Besides, the verse on the little painting will always be true, for him and for me. No matter what struggles we face in life, we can choose to still make a joyful noise unto the Lord. Our purpose in life in all that we do, whether it be facing cancer, painting oceans, or playing piano is to glorify God. If we can do that no matter what circumstances we face, I bet God is pleased.
My brother was baptized in the name of Jesus yesterday. For thirty years I have prayed every day that all my loved ones will come to the Lord. As the worries of cancer threatened to melt me, I saw the picture my sister posted of my brother kneeling at the altar. How blessed I am. How gracious my God is who tarries that all might know His glory.
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Parries God re your brother!!!!
ReplyDeleteWonderful message. A friend suggested I read Job again. And another devotional had a Job verse. Someone once asked how I would describe my life,they said Paulian about their life, I said Jobian. I willing toGod forever.
I will give u as much aloneness as you wish, whilst I am there. And as much non-aloneness, cuz I know you really are never alone. See you Thursday!
ReplyDeleteoh i plan to work you honey, while i put my feet up. i am not passing up this opportunity
DeleteLovely tribute to Ian!! What a talented, kind, Godly young man!
ReplyDeleteLove to you, my friend. So thankful that in our sometime needed "alone times" we are never truly alone, "for He hath said, 'I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.' So that we may boldly say, 'The Lord is my Helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.'" Hebrews 13:5b & 6. I love the reminder in verse 8 as well: "Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and today, and forever."